There is more to touch than the physical contact of skin, muscle and bone, there is also the often-misunderstood yet equally important energetic connection; a connection I use to touch people in a deeper, richer, way and open them to their own ability to heal.
I’m a body worker and shamanic practitioner and I’d like to show you an alternative to healing and relating to each other. Everyone possesses these skills; they are inherent to all humans, and with practice we could all become more adept to relating to each other and the world will be a better place.
I was one of those shy, quiet kids, I felt overwhelmed by the information bombarding my senses and would hide in my room and talk to my ‘imaginary’ friend. I could pick up on the subtle language that people were using, words almost seemed unnecessary. I also knew, without a doubt, that everything was alive; chairs, tables, clothes, toys, they all had feelings. While other kids were watching T.V, I was practicing how to move objects with the power of my mind and making sure my Barbie doll was not in an uncomfortable position, to me she was alive and could feel pain. It was a shock when I discovered that other people did not share my perception of the world. I was quickly shamed out of my “weird” behavior and “taught” how to fit in. It would be thirty years before I found someone else who was the same sort of “weird”.
The first time I met a Tai Chi master I understood what I sensed was not strange. For the first time in my life, I could really feel someone at all levels of perception. Someone was communicating to me in my own language, they were touching me with their energy, and when they held my hand I could feel them touch all of me. I knew I had finally found home. I was no longer an outcast, I belonged somewhere. For the first time, someone looked into my eyes and they saw all of me. When we communicated, I could feel a warm glow in my heart and stomach. My body was alive and our energy, the essence of who we are, danced and played and exploded in the space between us like beautiful multi-colored ribbons, tumbling together in the air, touching, communicating.
I spent the next ten years learning about my energy body, how to express energy, use it to heal, and to defend myself. I learned how to open up, how to close down, how to stay rooted and move it around my body. I became more confident and stopped hiding in my room and pretending to be like everyone else, no longer afraid to let my weirdness show. I learned that the very energy that created life, the chi that my master used to throw people across the room, was the same energy that could be used to heal someone.
I learned that, by current social standards, we are all weird, we all have an energy body, it just happens to be under-developed. I would love to open people up to this gift. If everyone could become aware and gain mastery over their life force energy, life would be so much richer. With instruction and practice everyone can learn to interact this way. Imagine a world where you can connect with each other in a profound way, able to understand and communicate, hold space and heal each other. Living with a deep awareness of your connection to your environment. Living fully, through all of your body and senses, being all of who you are. These are the skills I use to touch and heal. Shamanic healing is using this unseen energy to remove the things that don’t belong with you and return the things that do, pieces of a broken heart or soul fragment lost through trauma, as well as removing energy which has found a home in your body and does not belong.
Some people think I’m a body worker and just physically work skin and muscle, but for Shamanic healers there is a very subtle level where deep healing takes place. We sense how your energy body connects to others. Energy threads extend from your body and reach into the world, like tendrils of smooth ribbon, searching, connecting and bringing information back. When there is a blockage in your world, your energy threads can become tangled, lose their ease of movement. To smooth them it’s a bit like running fingers gently through tangled hair.
When I touch a client, I move my energy from my heart, down my arm and into my fingers. So that when they feel me, it’s not just the physical sensation of touch on their skin, but they can feel the essence of who I am and my loving, healing intention.
During the massage our energy fields communicate, my energetic ribbons extending from my body and gently touching theirs, silently asking questions, “How are you feeling in this moment? What do you need? How do you want to be touched? Where is the pain?
As I continue to work I might ask, “How do you show up in the world? What is holding you back? How do you relate to the people around you? How do you connect to your environment? What has hurt you? What do you need to heal?”
I can feel their response, my client’s nonverbal, energetic communication tells me what is blocked in their lives and how it is effecting their physical body. I sense their answers as a knowing in my body. This is in addition to the physical feedback I receive from touching tense, hard muscle with my hands and fingers.
As I work to release the tense blocks in their muscles and joints I’m also working to unblock the energy in their lives, for one mirrors the other. As I soften muscles with my hands, I’m also running along the meridians, the energy pathways in their body, following the ribbons of energy extending from their body into the world. I’m untangling conflict and the places they feel stuck. Uncovering the emotion or belief they need to release, in order to unlock their life and move forward.
People need to be listened to, this is how I know what is happening within a person. It could take many sessions of talking before people overcome their fear or shame of telling me what is wrong and what they need. At the soul and energetic levels there is no ego or shame, just honest communication. I use this information to respond to their needs. At the top level I can use old fashioned verbal communication to check that I have understood and listened, confirm boundaries and ask for permission.
So it’s not just rubbing and kneading sore muscles. So much happens unseen in this world. But it does exist and this is how you start to heal a person deeply, from their soul all the way through to their physical body. If you would like to communicate and connect at a deeper level, learning Tai Chi or Reiki can unlock this gift. It can open you to abilities you never knew you had, ways to communicate, heal and connect with each other. Unblock your life and move forward, make aware the unseen energy that exists in everyday life.